Find the wit... I know I can... it's in here somewhere...

My blog posts have been less than stellar. I am not losing speed, but I am processing information in my pea brain and I am quieting down a bit. Stepping back and really digesting information and looking at what I am bringing to the table and what's yet to be brought. I compare myself endlessly to some pretty incredible people in this business and just like the program of AA... I want some of what these people have in the way of abilities to deal and ways to get things done. It's not just the getting things done... it's the how. The process. And there is always an emotional aspect of this. Leveling that out so I can see clearly comes in waves and really, doing this job peels some good layers offa my human onion skinbag. I am so grateful to be here and doing what I am doing and I am getting the lessons of a lifetime in the process. How to let people just do what they do, and be who they are.

I made my amends to the person I needed to and a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I think that lesson was a good one as it really did stifle my ability to be present. I did spend a great deal of the weekend wondering what things like that mean in the grand scheme of things.. and then just decided that all I can do is keep my side of the street clean and do what is in front of me.
The people around me are doing well and they are pretty freakin' happy. So I'd say things are going good. I am ready to get some video up and running and also to see some pals in CT and formulate a plan for the first 2 weeks of Sept when I am off.. I think I may end up on an adventure somewhere here in the NE. I have the prospect of helping a friend shoot some video up in Boston, and I have some people I would love to visit with so.... just have to see what shows up.

And in the meantime... I finally got notice from the bank in Tucson about the impending foreclosure on my house there. Not a surprise. Boy things have shifted for me! I'm more worried about getting the wee trailers outta there than anything.

Oops... no wit...
Meh!
I'm in processing mode and have been since before Bisbee. I gotta move through things.