Gray areas....

No... not my 2 gray eyebrow hairs. More like the area between black or white thinking.

This gray area is elusive to me quite often. The experts talk about how addictive personalities struggle with this gray area.

I struggle.

And although it's not easy to see my way through when I'm faced with difficulty or conflict I know that I'm supposed to look for this gray thingy. My inability to access this easily has caused me a great deal of heartache and is a real indicator of my uber flawed self.

I am a work in progress.

It's a simple process to go to meetings and not drink in-between. It's not always easy to make amends and keep my side of the street clean. Looking at difficulties I'm having requires more amends. More work is essential if I want to stay out here and do what I love.

Without the footwork it gets empty.... without the play it's not good... without connection it's downright lonely.

I am not at that low point but I have been. Do what you love, love what you do....but most important be true to you.

I apologize for the heaviness of this rant...but I am processing over here. More coffee and the bestest corned beef hash in the world await. Those two things will be sure to fuel my journey towards caffienated enlightenment.