where was that yo-yo?

Oh wait... there it is!

Hidden behind that festival that doesn't want to pay and that house you thought you lived in down there in Bisbee.

Some good some not so pleasant.

Regarding the festival in Brockton that canceled, I did actually speak to the man i charge and he was pretty decent. So that was good. We'll see if they pony up the money that is contractually owed to these artists... but right now it's better to have had them actually respond than for us to be ignored all together.

And Bisbee...

Those legal bills...

Blech...

It's hard to know you don't have a home to go to if you needed to. I'm just saying...
I got thrown off my game today by some info from AZ and I guess I am just going have to accept all that comes at me with this because I can't change it anyhow.

I hate fighting.

So... not feeling like I had to fight with the promoter from Brockton is a plus... even though that may just be delayed a bi.t And yet know that there may be a huge expensive battle getting ready to rage in Bisbee is a bitter pill.

Like I said...

Blech.

Let me put in one very positive note here though.. I do have my head screwed on pretty straight these days and while I can be a moody girl at times, I am really happy to be getting to AA meetings and connecting with people in the program. I get to a meeting nearly every day when I'm here in CT. Sometimes 2 a day. And it makes a difference. I can get kinda solitary out on the road hyper-focusing on what needs to be done and taking care of other people. So I think I'm getting to a place where I can see what time I need for myself and how I can navigate through that while still working to be the best tour manager I can be. It's not always easy.

Balance, self-respect, and maintaining the dreamer inside my skinbag. Very much things that matter to me. I am a woman of possibility.

I need to create a huge possibility for my continued existence in Bisbee.. maybe that's it! I have been focused on what's not going well there today... but I guess it's time to focus instead on what IS going well! Like how much I love it there and how much I love my friends!

Ok... I feel better now.

Thank you wee bloggy for letting me get that out.