the wait.

Today I wait for word from my mom on some newly reported blockage in her carotid artery. This is most certainly not the kind of news that one really wants to hear and yet, at the same time it's important to know. My mom and I have been somewhat lighthearted around her health issues but at the same time I try to make sure she knows that if she needs me I'm there.

I started this blog so my mom would know where I was and basically how I was doing after I left AZ to go do this thing I call life. Since I haven't been back much since and since it's (sadly) extremely expensive for me to get there... I am stockpiling cash just in case I need to go back to be there for any major procedures.  Balancing everything out in my brain is a chore to be sure, and yet it needs to be done.

I am like a bunch of people across this country.. I used to make money... now I make very little if any. On the happiness scale I'm up there, and on the hidden stress scale I'm elevated for sure. On the reality scale I feel pretty aware of the things I ignore and run from vs. the things I choose to deal with daily.

I know that dealing with my sanity and getting to meetings is a really good thing. There is NOTHING a drink would make any better... that's for sure!  I have a bunch to do... and now... it's time to get out the door for a noon meeting.