Cause and effect.

As I start to recover from my back injury, Cathryn has reminded me that it would be good to look at the underlying cause. My initial thought was that I hadn't taken good care of my physical body well enough to keep my core strong. And while that's definitely true, there is an underlying emotional cause. So much has been up in the air really for almost the last year and a half. And my sense of security had really dwindled on so many fronts. Does it help that I am a tour manager with nobody to tour with? Probably not. It only fosters a longing to be out there doing the job and hearing music. Every night when I go to sleep I am thinking about some awesome musician out there putting on a show and effectively shifting people's hearts and minds for the better.. and I miss it. I can't deny that's there. And yet, if I was supposed to be touring right now, I would be, right? This extended period off the road has put so much into perspective, and I have gotten to really quiet down and look at some of my choices over the last few years... I did ok  for the most part. And in continuing to manifest my dreams into reality I have to share a piece of good fortune that has come my way...

This pic is of my new digs here in Hilton Head as of this coming Thursday.

Yes. A houseboat.

My nearly liflelong dream of living on a boat is becoming reality. The sad part is that I won't be able to really scramble all over it till my back heals up which will be a couple weeks yet. It's a 32' 1968 Seagoing and it's in the marina closest to Delisheee Yo.  It'll be a quick bike ride over.

This is the view... and it's right about the perfect place to watch a sunset if you aren't physically on the beach. So maybe that's what this time in SC has been about too? Getting to see if I can really do the liveaboard thing. I am able to go touring if it comes up, but since those prospects look dim, at least I will be in the middle of my own human experiment called "Wen on the Water" through the summer. Which of course is hurricane season.. and hot and sweaty... but I'm gonna be on a freakin' boat!

Comes complete with a crab trap. (I'll never use)

So while I look deeper into my emotional depths for what may have caused my back outage... and boy oh boy, THAT was the worst by far... I have gratitude in my heart for my mom and her health and generosity, and Cathryn for her generosity... and for so much really. I think that'll be a good focus for today.

I'll be seeing the chiropractor today... kinda scared for more pain.. but I know it needs fixing.  Wish me luck! Or light a lucky candle...