–adjective
1.secure from liability to harm, injury, danger, or risk: a safe place.
2.free from hurt, injury, danger, or risk: to arrive safe and sound.
3.involving little or no risk of mishap, error, etc.: a safe estimate.
4.dependable or trustworthy: a safe guide.
5.careful to avoid danger or controversy: a safe player; a safe play.
6.denied the chance to do harm; in secure custody: a criminal safe in jail.
(from dictionary.com. I deleted the ones about baseball...)
I am examining my relation to this word. I woke up not only with the hideous soreness that I have to get through with my back, but a sense of sadness, loss and feeling unsafe. My anger is still there too. Everything around me is shifting. Just as I gear up to start fixing the Bisbee house, a houseboat pops into my life..during my time off of touring a friend needs help opening and running a business.. and my back... well... maybe my back is taking all of this a little too seriously.
I'm fearful today. Questioning my choices. Unsettled.
Anyone wanna talk me down?
5 comments:
Hmmm.... none of it matters any way. We're all just going to wind up dead some day. Just enjoy yourself, and have some fun. Wave your hands in the air like you just don't care! Forget about this "bigger picture" of what you're "supposed to do" stuff , what is your destiny, bla bla bla. Scratch that, nobody knows.
You temporarily have a bad back, and you have a new killer houseboat...not bad, Lady Layton!
My suggestion for the day, get some music on your boat, music you can play out-loud. Disco music. Consider the immortal words of Donna Summer...
"Toot, toot, heeey, beep beep!"
How's that?
Break-ins suck, I know. We were lucky many years ago to not have anything stolen, but even knowing that someone had simply kicked in our door freaked me out completely and left me with that same feeling of vulnerability that you're going through right now. I don't think there's much I can say that would make it go away, at least not immediately! But meditate on this: YOU are still there, and your friends are still there. It's so easy for us to get attached to Things, and there are so many reasons (theft; flood, earthquake or other catastrophes; divorce, or what-have-you) that make Things go away for one reason or another. But you still have YOU, and you still have love and friendship, and no thief or flood or anything like that can take any of those from you unless you let them.
Yes, you've lost a laptop with some very cool stuff (videos, music, etc.) on it. But there will be other cool stuff in the future. And you don't need a laptop to remember all these excellent things you've done and the excellent people you've done them with. It's nice, it's really cool and handy, but it's not necessary. Yes, you're feeling fearful, sad and unsettled today -- you're human.
We all go through periods of change in our life. Some are pretty small, some are profound, most are somewhere in between. Sounds like you're definitely at the 'profound' end of the spectrum these days... If it helps, you have been a great inspiration to me as we move forward in a life where I'm no longer working the 12-hour days at a major corporation and bringing in the nice paycheck and benefits to go with the drudgery and mental suckage of working for the Borg. You, and the Kennedys, and Christine Kane's new album, and any number of other musician and musician-tied friends and acquaintances who have shown me that Things aren't nearly as important as friendship and doing something that makes me happy and keeps my sanity intact. I know my gratitude doesn't even begin to make up for your physical and emotional losses over the last couple of days/weeks/months, but I thought you should know.
Given that it was one of your comments many ages back that introduced me to Rob Brezsny (thank you, thank you, thank you! what a cool guy!!), I think it's only fair that I give you a quote from his horoscope for this week (even if it's not your horoscope). It's stuff I know you know, because I've seen you write things like this here. But it doesn't hurt to hear it again. I know I need to hear it, thought I'd share!
"You're not living in Iraq or Sudan or the Congo, and you don't have to walk five miles a day with a jug on your head to fetch the water you need, and you're not so bereft of food that you have to resort to eating worms and tree bark. So how bad could your problems be? The single best thing you can do to start fixing your life's small glitches is to feel waves of gratitude for how many resources you have and how lucky you are. The second best thing would be to aggressively take your worried attention off yourself and turn your mind toward people who could really benefit from your help. As you carry out those two assignments, your dilemmas will begin to solve themselves as if by magic."
OK, that turned out to be WAY more wordy than I had intended. But I meant well... :)
WOW!!!!
Great words ladies! I feel better spiritually for sure... the back is a slow mend I fear. But I can walk and drive so it's good.
Faith... thank you so much for the Brezny and all of your words. I needed to read each and every one of them.
when you are mobile, get your boat over here and recover by the pool and in the hot tub!
CORRECTION it was get your "butt" over here, no "boat", freudian slip, or my vertigo is definitely affecting my brain!
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