It's starting to sink in...
My macbook really is long gone.. and with it about 30 hours of video work, a few thousand pictures I never backed up, and countless documents. My heart is beyond broken. I feel violated... I am so angry! That's not going to help my back. I have to relax and stretch. I want a fucking grilled cheese and some tomato soup... I need comfort... no fried fucking chicken... hell... I just want to cry. I saved up for 3 years for that fucking computer!!! Ok... enough venting.. it's not really helping.
So much shifting and a bunch of it is so positive. I'm scared about this transition to living on the boat... seems surreal... and now I feel unsafe.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry for the extreme language. I'm not making any money... replacing it is hard enough... replacing the photos and hours of video work..not happening... my bad for not backing it up. Should have known better. I had a false sense of security. And what about my itunes library? That wasn't backed up either...@#$%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok... perspective please?
Not life or death.
Basically bankrupt anyways.
Spiritually I have hope.
Still have a netbook.
And last but not least... I don't want to take a drink.
I'd like to beat the crap outta someone... but I don't want a drink.
This just wiped out the majority of the touring photos and such that I had... it's adding a huge amount of sadness to what's already there by not being out there right now.
So sad...
Seems like just when I start to get a leg up... Some bitch come across the field and slide tackles me...
I gotta find my happy loving compassionate place...
2 comments:
Ugh, ugh, ugh. :(
You do have a good perspective on it, though -- at least nobody got hurt!!
Many years ago, someone broke into woj's apartment while he was on the phone talking to me and made off with pretty much the entire contents of his roommate's recording studio in the living room. They were living in a kinda sketchy part of New Brunswick, NJ at the time and it's really a miracle that the perpetrators didn't decide to eliminate any potential witnesses.
The loss of the data is painful, but again ... it's just electrons. You and C. and Smarty are all still safe, that's what matters.
Hopefully C.'s insurance will cover it for you ... if not, do you have AppleCare? I *think* that covers theft ... and once you get your new MacBook, I have two words for you:
Time Machine. :}
Ugh, I failed to read this before attempting to "talk you off the cliff".
Ya, this sucks, no doubt about it!
You still will eventually die though, if that makes you feel any better.
Oh crap, I think I'm just making this worse!
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