This morning's thought process is as crazy and typical as all of mine are...
I'm pondering how much fear I have in my life and looking back on times I felt I was fearless. What I wonder is this... was I fearless or just totally not that sharp on what I was undertaking? Was I just a fool? And what does it matter now?
As I was having a wee text session with a friend yesterday, I texted something about how maybe some planning and organization would be a good thing for me? And she texted back that had I done the last few years as a planned and regimented endevour .that, "I would have learned half as much and only had half as much fun."
I do fly by the seat of my pants... and I do create dumb consequences. And I don't know that I could do it any other way. But I do know that letting fear rule me keeps me separate for people I love.
It keeps me from answering my phone or reading emails too...
If that doesn't make your world get smaller real fast, I dunno what does! So it's just a caffeine fueled awareness... and I am going to do my projects I have for today then I am going to try to get a friend or two on the phone to connect.
All of this just validates how self-centered my thinking is... and that too is good to be aware of.
2 comments:
Miss Wendy, Don't be too hard on yourself. You have done well on this latest adventure, and in my belief system, there are no wrong turns, truly, and all is always as it should be. Be well and give yourself a big hug! xoKATE
I agree with Kate. No wrong turns. We may make turns that take us out of the way or off course and even those are for a reason...it is where you are meant to be and every moment is lived as it should be. Usually when i am off course and full of fear i am lost..sometimes on a back road.... but even that always has a great ending..."i once was lost and now im found was blind and now i see."
Go Lightly. Love and Light to you!
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