Yesterday was a day of a lighter heart and it felt really good. The boat bill will be whatever it is.. and there is no sense making it a big bad thing. The truth is, it felt good to know it was fixed and back in it's slip... and literally waiting for me with the a/c on when I got to it.

Light heartedness is a skill I have never really looked at developing. I don't think anyone would ever say I was lighthearted.

They would be more likely to say intense or fast paced or impulsive.

But I have never heard lighthearted.

Having done some therapy over the phone in the last few weeks (literally on the phone with my therapist..) I see I just need to be focused on cleaning up my shite... to free me up for what's next. Have you ever been in a holding pattern for longer than 6 months and completely uncertain of your future? I guess a bunch of people across the US could say a resounding yes to that with the way unemployment has spread like a plague. People with many years of impeccable experience... who can't find jobs.. or people who have had businesses for 30 plus years and the economy has ground their business to a halt. I am not unique. I do still have food in my belly and coffee whilst under a roof.. and it IS air conditioned.

I'll say this then I'll shut up..

I am grateful. I have been taken care of these last several months by a friend who has let a bunch of other people land on her doorstep tired and kinda broken (not to mention broke!)  and she is throwing me some cash for this yo gig. And I can eat all the yo I want. I am living on a houseboat... that is now leak free and getting cuter by the day with all the dumb "Wendy style" things I'm doing to it.

That is all.
: x